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Chapter 367
[Aaron Side Story Episode 38]
4. Those who yearn for power by themselves (8)
* * *
What does it feel like to have no heart, not to feel any emotions?
Aaron thought.
I imagined the scenery of a certain funeral.
The deceased is buried in a coffin and everyone around is crying.
I share my sadness with the person who is leaving, remembering the things I couldn’t say and the things I couldn’t say yet.
But only one of them.
There are people who stand in a daze.
It is not hardened by excessive sadness.
It’s hard because you can’t feel anything.
I know it by reason.
That now is a situation to be sad about. That it’s time to shed tears and regret parting with the deceased.
Especially if you had a deep relationship in your life.
But I don’t feel anything.
just standing tall
It’s not sad.
That person is just dead.
I have the confidence to calmly understand.
People around him looked at him and thought.
I couldn’t overcome the sadness and my body stiffened.
You can’t accept the reality that the deceased is dead.
That’s not it.
It’s not that kind of human.
It’s not that I couldn’t accept that person was dead.
just not sad
I don’t feel anything.
That’s it.
If anyone here looked into his mind, it would give him goosebumps.
Suddenly, he came to his senses and began to act out his emotions. This will result in strange treatment.
Pretending to be sad, pretending to cry, frowning and holding on to the coffin.
with an empty heart.
With a chest that doesn’t feel anything.
And finally he starts to doubt.
Are you the same type as them?
which mutation is not.
Even so, I don’t feel the fear of it, so I’m confident that I don’t mind too much.
It was sick.
A disease that turns into a monster.
he is sick
* * *
The graveyard is located quite far from the cabin.
It must have been a place that Master didn’t want to show much.
Aaron was generally satisfied and returned to the cabin with the boy.
“What does helping do? You’re good, you fool!”
On the way back, the teacher’s scolding continued.
Aaron smiled and passed it over.
“How arrogant. are you crazy yes?”
Master is suffering from a mental illness.
He is a patient who needs to be looked after with a warm gaze and a gentle attitude.
“Hey, I want to die! hey!”
Isn’t it because he’s embarrassed to run wild like this?
I was always in a position to help others.
Maybe he’s not used to being in a position where he gets help.
“It’s okay, Master. Let me help Master... Kuck!”
The boy slapped Aaron on the back of the head.
Aaron fell face down.
“Don’t treat me like a sick person because I feel dirty. I can do well on my own.”
“...”
“...are you dead?”
“no.”
Aaron smiled and stood up.
Blood was pouring out of his nose.
The boy murmured with a frightened expression.
“Have you seen all these idiots?”
“Don’t worry. Because I am strong.”
* * *
The two who visited the Luanan dimension seemed to be leaving right away.
The boy entrusted Aaron with the role of seeing off the guests.
The location where the dimension gate opens is the empty lot on the side road of the gymnasium.
A dimensional door was open in the middle of the clearing.
“Here you are.”
The portal is connected to Niflheim.
Two figures stood side by side in front of him.
Niflheim’s best swordsman, Ridigion, and the healer he brought.
The two turned their faces as if they had been waiting for Aaron to come.
“Sorry for the late send-off.”
Aaron bowed his head.
“No, we were about to go back soon.”
“Do you have any other business for me?”
“My business is already over.”
Lydigion shook his head.
The reason the man had to come here.
Maybe it’s for testing.
Whether or not he is qualified to be the boy’s successor.
As a result of the battle, Ridigion was convinced and was about to return to the waiting room.
Then, the other business was the woman who introduced herself, saying that she was the therapist next to her.
She was staring at Aaron as if she were going to eat him.
The gaze beyond the mask was burdensome.
“Aaron, I’m glad you got the results you wanted.”
“Ah yes thank you.”
“Lydigion seems to have recognized you.”
Ridigion added.
“I didn’t admit it. I just understood the man’s choice.”
“Which choice do you mean?”
“The choice to stay here until the end.”
Two eyes cross each other.
An uncomfortable silence followed.
‘What’s the atmosphere like?’
It was like walking on thin ice.
“Once we’ve decided, we have no right to change it.”
“Isn’t that why you came here to convince me? Did Lidigion accept his decision?”
“I don’t know. The intention was unknown. But if you make that decision, you must respect it as a comrade-in-arms.”
“Even if that decision comes at your own peril?”
“okay.”
The therapist looked away.
He seemed to be organizing his thoughts behind the mask.
“I will go first. Let’s talk about it.”
Ridigion disappeared beyond the portal.
It was an exit without hesitation.
“...”
All that remains is Aaron and an unidentified woman.
Aaron swallowed his saliva.
The atmosphere of this place was completely unpredictable.
‘Your decision. persuade. danger?’
I knew that I was talking about the teacher, but I didn’t know the details.
Before long, the woman’s eyes turned to Aaron.
“Aaron said he was his disciple.”
“That’s right.”
“Congratulations. Seeing that Ridigion-nim acknowledged it, it seems that the desired results have been achieved.”
can’t read emotions
Are you sincerely congratulating?
Or is it sarcastic?
“Hehe, don’t be too firm. I am not blaming you.”
“Ah yes...”
“I just want to ask Aaron-nim one thing.”
“Are you asking?”
“It’s about him.”
the therapist said.
“Unfortunately, he doesn’t listen to us. You must have closed your heart to us. It wasn’t like that before, which is really unfortunate.”
The therapist said as if recalling the past.
The boy hadn’t done that before.
He was the kind of person who fit in with them and always evoked the atmosphere.
At one point, the boy suddenly locked himself in this space and could not come out.
“You know? The longer you spend in this dimension, the more it erodes your psyche.”
“...”
“Of course I understand the power of karma. It will require a long ordeal. However, if you have built up enough strength and still stay in this space, you are taking more risks than necessary.”
this woman
You know exactly what karma really is.
“We also know that his heart is special. Nonetheless, limitations exist. He has been here too long. too much.”
“Could you tell me a little more?”
Aaron said stiffly.
“I’ll tell you directly.”
“....”
“His presence is on the verge.”
It’s on the verge.
Are you dying soon?
“It is not life, it is existence. Do you know the specificity of karma after realizing it? Those who have realized karma cease to be life from then on. It is to become a kind of spirit.”
“It hurts!”
“You have to stay focused. Come to your senses, dude.”
“Then take it easy...”
“Are you aware of the uproar outside?”
The young man looks back at the boy.
“I thought the situation outside was unusual? Well, the Master is dangerous, so the game system is broken. It’s shit.”
“Is it broken?”
“The goddess said that if you climb the tower all the way, the world will be restored, it was a lie! Your brother ate so many taffy there that his head went crazy. From what I’ve heard, it’s not a fuss about dying or not?”
“Brother? Is that really it!”
“okay. your dear brother one israat. The goal you wanted to become stronger.”
target.
Light returns to the eyes of a young man who has lost his reason.
“...!”
The young man frowned.
It was confusing.
Memories are jumbled, jumbled, jumbled, and nothing can be discerned.
‘older brother.’
Things are not good outside.
Your brother’s life may be in danger.
said the Master.
‘I have to help.’
If not, Aaron’s years of endurance would be meaningless.
I couldn’t finish it without swinging the spear once.
‘I am this me.’
Any help would be great.
Anything has to be done.
‘but.’
I feel like I’m missing something.
It was something very important.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t remember very well.
It feels just like that.
I had a certain intense dream, but when I woke up, I couldn’t remember what the dream was about.
Actually, maybe this is a dream too.
There is no sense of reality.
“Master.”
“why?”
“I think I had a dream...”
Aaron said in a hollow voice.
“In my dream... I...”
“Stop.”
“yes?”
“Forget that dream.”
“but.”
“It’s a dream.”
said the boy.
“You are here and I am here. Nothing happened.”
“okay.”
Aaron was convinced.
okay.
Master is here.
he is here too
There is nothing wrong with it.
Because a more important problem is blocking my eyes.
Aaron raised the silver spear given to him by Lydigion.
Ugh!
Sharp shadows gathered at the tip of the spear.
‘do.’
He definitely made the karma his own.
I was able to use the shadow much stronger and more effectively than when I first dealt with karma and struggled with the man.
It may already be too late.
The older brother he respected became dangerous, and now everything may be irreversible.
A look of uneasiness flashed across Aaron’s face.
“are you okay.”
The boy looked at Aaron.
A funny expression, as always.
“Do something.”
“yes.”
Let’s do something.
Because he has this power he learned from his master.
Aaron walked towards the portal with firm steps.
“By the way, Master.”
Suddenly Aaron stopped.
Master looked back.
“What was Master’s dream?”
As if to say something, the master blinks his eyes.
“Because I don’t think that was ever asked.”
“It is my dream.”
The boy thought for a moment and then replied.
“I felt unfair because I had no talent.”
“...”
“My dream was revenge against the world. I hated the world where everything was decided by talent. So I wanted to prove it.”
Revenge on the world.
I want to prove that I can do it even if I have no talent.
Aaron nodded.
‘The source of Master’s karma is revenge against the world.’
what.
This... it couldn’t have been.
weird.
‘plural?’
The boy recited his past.
“I cursed God every night. Why did you give me this talent?”
“...”
“So it’s a match. with the world No matter who wins, it continues like this...”
“...Lies.”
“what?”
“The dreams Master says are all lies.”
said Aaron.
“Because I know. I mean I know. What was Master here for? That dream is...”
“You haven’t woken up yet.”
The boy put his hand on Aaron’s forehead.
That alone.
The young man’s eyes blur.
“are you okay.”
“...”
“Let’s start over.”
Chijik.
* * *
Memories are mixed and mixed.
All of the above is false.
delusion and deceit
* * *
Ugh.
It was a familiar vacant lot.
The portal to Niflheim opened.
“Ha, it took a long time.”
The boy let out a deep sigh.
“How long has it been since you left here? Oh, was it during the last event? Do you remember kid?”
Tuk-tuk.
The boy patted the back of the young man next to him.
“Yes I remember.”
Aaron answered right away.
can’t forget
‘I think I had a dream.’
a long dream.
However, Aaron decided not to recall the contents of the dream.
A dream is a dream and reality is reality.
beyond this portal.
A harsh reality awaits him.
“Are you prepared?”
“yes.”
The situation outside is dire.
I heard it from my master.
My brother is in danger.
A broken world may not be restored.
He said he might never see Nina again.
But don’t give up.
I struggled a lot to get this power.
decided to do something
It may have been too late, but it couldn’t have ended like this.
‘Master.’
Aaron turned around.
The boy is by his side and he is here.
Only that was true.
“Do something.”
“yes.”
Aaron made up his mind.
Because he has this power he learned from his master.
Aaron walked towards the portal with firm steps.
Aaron Delcurd’s training in Luanan came to an end
.